2015 Goals

1. Finish Projects: I have a scrapbook that I was doing for a friend that was supposed to be a birthday and then a Christmas present. I spend so much time doubting myself and saying "She'll hate it. She could do it so much better." Just do it. I put time into this and when I do finish it; I'm sure she'll like it and if she doesn't. Well that's not my problem at that point. 
2. Change Myself (Physically): I have had my hair the same way for as long as I can remember. I had to get it cut fairly short and I hated it. I basically kept it up until it grew out. I spend so many days shoving my hair up in a bun/ponytail/braid. And my hair is long, dry, and hard to deal with. So get it cut, maybe get bangs; remember that it's only hair. *Sigh* It will grow back and you can do the same ole thing! And I could stand to lose about 10-15 pounds, a little flubber and a lotta love handles, but if I want to change that I have to exercise. I'm so good at being lazy! Put in that Jillian Michaels' DVD, jump around, be more active, leave the damn house! When the Spring hits, go for that run! Hit that 5k, be careful but keep going. 
3. Mental Change: Stop the self doubt! Find the confidence that I lost somewhere around 21! I Sure the pounds packed on and maybe I realized that I wasn't as pretty as I thought that I was but that doesn't mean that I'm not worth it. I have to learn to ignore my own self doubts, I'm interesting (sometimes), and I can talk to people but I'm so shy! I find it really hard to believe that anyone is interested in what I say and if they aren't? God it just proves to my doubting mind that I'm boring! Mentally I need confidence in myself, so that I can deal with whatever should come. 
4. Make Memories: Instead of sticking to myself and then feeling bad that I missed out on things. Show up and make those memories. It goes with mental change! I know I'm an introvert but I can be interesting, so I just have to remember that spending time with people isn't a chore. It's fun and I should make the absolute most of it. Plus if it's summer, I can always read a lot! 
5. Travel: Even if this is only to see friends who are not so far away. It's a start. Well to do that I have to get my passport renewed and that's on my list! So passport renewed and then the next step is, see the old friends. Start small and then see the world; even if it is on my own. 
6. Take more pictures: I used to be the photographer for my friends. I always had my camera with me and even though I didn't like to be in pictures a lot. I managed to capture some good and not so good pictures. So take pictures with people! If I travel and take pictures maybe I can make a scrapbook of my year. Start a project and finish it. See it all comes full circle! 
7. Have a month where I read a book every day: I love reading but it comes back to the not finishing things. I leave them and just don't finish them! I have a whole shelf of books and I'm downloading them nonstop on my kobo/kindle app, plus scribd.com. So I'm not allowed to buy anymore books or download anymore until I finish some. At least most. I'm gonna have to start getting up early to do all of this! 
8. Write More: I have a lot of ideas about things that could be good books. I'm not an author, not even close but I like to write and it's good for my imagination! So write more, even if I think it's stupid.

That's all that I have to say for now! I think eight things to work on throughout the next months of 2015 is enough! Maybe I'll write an update every month and see if I am actually doing what I say I'm doing!