Quarter Life Crisis?

Do you ever have that moment where you just stop and wonder what it is that you are doing with your life? I do! I was in the middle of reading a book today and my mind wandered from the 18th century to the you have accomplished nothing! And that's not true, I do have accomplishments, they just aren't what I thought that they would be at 26. Jeez!
At the ripe old age of 16, I was wise; I wrote in a diary or journal and I had some pretty deep thoughts. Now I have a fear in a way of putting my thoughts somewhere. Starting in about grade 10, teachers start to ask you what you are going to do with your life and if you don't know or haven't really figured it out yet, they tell you to start thinking. Now even in younger me this started a panic and I started to plan out my life. Well, young one, that didn't happen. Life does not go according to plan. When you start to think that you have something figured out, you just don't. I'm back to where I was at 16, trying to figure out what would work well for me. I've thought about it a million times and I have had a million different ideas but then procrastination and other things, minor panic and let me just go back to bed set it. I wonder if people ever stop worrying about if they are doing the right thing?
Now let me write to my 16 year old self and tell her to enjoy the time that she has left in high school because in a year and a bit she's going to go to university. When she gets there she will realize that though she seemed smart in high school, her lazy ass is not going to do as well in university. Things are hard! Studying is important and you and I both know that you don't study. Due to good genes, I read fast, extremely fast. My brain processes words a little faster than other people's do. I didn't realize that I read faster than anyone else but I did notice when I was younger that I was reading longer books than my classmates but they didn't like reading and I did. Grade 5 or 6, we had a class in the library and it was a reading period. We were actually reading and I read a book about Full House and I read it in about half an hour. This is normal for me; my classmates picked on me and picked on me until I lied and said that I had skipped pages. They all laughed and said that they knew it, I couldn't read that fast because the smartest girl in the class couldn't read that fast and she was smart. Ouch. That stings to this day but it also led me to slowing myself down and making sure that I was there for as long as they were and that I was never the first finished reading things. I changed myself to fit in with them and I continued to do it throughout my school years.
Anyway, as I was saying; hmmm off topic much? Because of my actual ability to speed read, I could take short cuts and I didn't study as much as I should have. Which wasn't good for university because no one was regulating me. I did well in my classes but I always found that when something was hard for me, I became frustrated and this might be my downfall. When I get frustrated I will try again but eventually I will give up. And that is not good!
So note to self; figure out what makes you happy and work on it. Don't let the doubts from your ast experiences make you think that you can't because you can. You might not be the smartest person in the world but you're not stupid. You will figure it out and you'll do it in your own time. It's not a race. You've picked yourself up before and you will do it again!